For a special Day

In this selfish world, I live so unselfishly,

But for just one day I wanna do things differently ...

For this one day, I wanna live for me ...

For one day I wanna see you make someone smile for me,

For one day, whisper sweet nothings in my ear endlessly

For one day, cancel those plans and stay by side, next to me

For this day, look at the sunset through my eyes,

Or say I am the most beautiful girl and make it sound less like lies

For this day, make me forget my miseries and close my eyes,

And let me dream again of a crimson world ..

For this day, this special day,

Make my existence, my life, worthwhile ...

The Autumn Princess

As he walked down the concrete path that was covered with shredded leaves and dried flowers, he thought of a similar day when he first saw her.

It was a November evening, when autumn was turning into winter and the skies looked like the cheeks of a teenage girl blushing red. He saw her from a distance. The white cotton dress that she was wearing had little white lilies, making it look like it was made for this day.

He stood by the gate of the Church, almost hesitating to step in … just wanting her to walk by holding that bouquet of long-stem roses. He wished he had his sketchbook in which he usually attempted to replicate those miracles of nature. He noticed that she was walking towards the graveyard. She stepped in there with silent steps. In his eagerness, he followed her, only making sure he wasn’t close enough for her to know of his presence. She stopped by a white gravestone. The statue of an archangel wiping away a tear drop stood there. She gently knelt down placing the bouquet of roses like she were placing them in the lap of the one that lay there. As she began to pray, tears streamed down her eyes. As he watched her standing at a distance, his heart cried out too …. But why? He wondered. It was only moments ago that he had seen her …

Why was his soul feeling the sorrow that a stranger was undergoing? He stood at a distance, behind a gravestone, as she wiped her tears, got up and started to walk out …

He came back the next day; hoping he’d see her again, praying that he could find the courage to go up to her and just saying a few words that would soothe her bleeding her heart. But he just stood there that morning and for several mornings thereafter…

He sat by the Oak tree in the Church, at the entrance of the graveyard and painted a portrait as if it was the single most important goal of his life. As days passed by, she noticed him. So one December morning, walked up to him and asked him why he was here for so many mornings. He tried so hard to hide away his masterpiece. But all in vain. She smiled as she saw it. For the first time, in all the time that he knew her had he seen the dimples on her cheek that looked like dew-drops on rose petals at dawn.

She said, “The man I am here to see everyday, my Papa, also once painted a similar portrait of mine …” So conversations began and closeness grew. Before he could realize he was falling deeply in love with her …

His newest friend … his confidant … BLOSSOM …

Confessions of a heart

Today I heard you speak to her again. And I knew then, that I was just kidding myself ......

'Coz you are just someone who is being there for me ...

You are not gonna be there forever .....

Soon it will be time for you to leave .....

So I give myself a million reasons to hate you .....

A thousand reasons to create distances that sets us apart ...

A hundred reasons to step away ...

But then I just walk back into your life

You poke fun at a friend I care for .....

You accuse me of crimes I never committed ...

You say things I wish I'd never heard ...

Yet I walk back into your life ....

And when you say you are going away ...

I make a prayer that you stay ...

Then I think ... You've given me a million reasons to hate you ...

AND maybe you give me one reason not to ....................................................

Stop Female Foeticide

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Took a shot at writing copy.

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Happy Feast

Unsaid

I thought I'd write to you today ... about how I felt ...
when you looked at me from the corner of your eye
and how I catch that look and smile ...
and how I had started to live that lie ....

I thought I'd write to you today ... about how I felt ..
when I walked down those lanes of life ..
and how you'd take my every advice ...
and that I felt, I added meaning to my presence, in your life ..


I thought I'd write to you ... 'bout what I meant ...
when I'd say I'll be there until time turns around ..
and how life would be so different .. so beautiful ...
if you would feel that same feeling that I felt ....

I thought I'd write to you today ... of why those unspoken words are being said today ....
Its 'coz I see you going away ...

I wanna hold on ... and let you read all those words I've written ...
But time has taken its course and what was today is now yesterday ...

And in a blink while you're gaze has shifted ...
Your world has changed ..

Those words you should have read...
are being torn into shreds ...

Those words maybe ... are better best UNSAID ...

Crimson

Unspoken words,

unheard stories ,

just silent secrets.

Untrodden paths,

unsung songs,

just silent silhouettes.

Untouched worlds,

unabridged lives,

just silent hope.

Unadulterated fantasies,

unforgetable moments,

JUST Crimson Dreams Glistening ....... in my eyes.

Musings

I sat by the window sill and as the lazy rains poured down. With a cup of freshly brewed coffee and your favourite music playing in the background, I made one more attempt to let the rains wash away all those memories...

But these lil drops of happiness were bringing a smile as I thought of a similar day when we took a walk down the beachside, your presence making me feel warm in the chilly breeze after that light shower ....

I recalled all we spoke about during that hour, every word etched in my head like it were carved on stone. How you confessed that your secret admirer had made one more attempt to make herself known. Not giving you much more than a lil' clue, a CD. With all your favourite songs on it. Each one handpicked, like she knew you inside out. With that puzzled look you asked me, "Why won't she make herself known? After all what's to loose?"

So I told you that maybe she'd much rather admire you from a distance than make herself known. And set herself miles apart from you. And he asked "why would I do that to her? From what I see she seems so caring and sweet. I don't think I would have a reason ... "

And I thought, she knows the reason too. You don't Love her. And she knows she will never be able to change that.She's tried. When you were feeling down, she would make every attempt to cheer you up. Not seizing one opportunity. When you had a reason to celebrate she would make sure nothing would ruin that happy moment. And when she thought you just wanted to know that your presence made a difference she'd give you a warm hug to make your day ....

And now after all those failed attempts she knows that it all makes sense coz Love was never meant to be selfish and whoever said Love if not two sided is unsuccessful was only looking at it with a myopic perspective. Coz Love is selfless and pure ... It's not a debt that's meant to be returned ...

And as you and I sat down to gaze at the sunset you sid to me with that lil twinkle in your eyes "I am a lil worried. I like these sweet jestures of my secret admirer, but I dont know if she is spoiling me .. by giving me so much attention. Then again I guess I will never miss it. Coz the lady who will put a ring on this finger tomorrow will do the same. Give me the love I never had. " "And then I've got you babe .. my best friend"

I took another sip of the coffee and while I continued to watch the rain pour down. The song played on " Wherever you go whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you ."

Le Chale (OST My Brother Nikhil)

Chandni Muskuraye Jab Hawa Kuch Kahe
Samjho Meri Sadaye Hai Tere Saath Main
Jo Ghana Ho Fiza Main Andhera
Layenge Hum Savere Tere Liye
Le Chale Le Chale Yaadon Ke Yeh Kaafile
Jayenge Hum Jahan
Yeh Zameen Asmaan Mile

Narm Boondon Ki Rimjhim
Pehli Baarish Ke Din
Dopahar Garmiyon Ki
Shame Woh Sard Si
Rut Koi Koi Mausam Koi Ghadi
Ho Saath Main Humko Har Dam Tum Paaoge

Ahaatein Dheemi Dheemi Tere Awaaz Ki
Choti Choti Si Baaten Woh Shararat Bhari
Un Palo Un Lamho Ki Jaadoogari
Aaj Bhi Hai Sanjoye
Dil Ne Mere

Le Chale Le Chale Yaadon Ke Yeh Kaafile
Jayenge Hum Jahan
Yeh Zameen Asmaan Mile
Le Chale Le Chale

Quotes that add sense to life ...

This one is a beautiful line from a Sufi Song ... These two lines mean so much

घर से मसजिदहै बहुत दूर ...

चलो यूं ना करें

किसी रोते हुए बच्चे को हसाया जाए

" Ghar Se Masjid hai bahut door ... chalo yun na karein ..

Kissi roote hue bachche ko Hasaya jaye ...

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My wish for You

When you wished someone would take care of you,

And saw no one around

I was not too far away ... but right there,

Making a lil prayer for you

And when you yearned for a loved one to pick up the phone and call you

And say that they were wanting you to come home .. while you were late at work

I wished you'd have a safe journey as you walked down that lonely lane back home ....

Like a guardian angel I wished to always be by your side,

Invisible, quiet, serene,

And protecting you from every bad tide.

But I always found myself at distance from you,

Loving you when you felt you were lonely....

Yearning to be there when you felt lost ......

WITH YOU

Met a stranger today as I took one step closer to paradise
I wanted to hold that hand and cross all the hurdles of life .....

I wished his presence would be mine until eternity ..
But when I turned around I saw him go by ...

Like a dream it all seemed ...
Distant and far away ...

Like the early morning sunlight that made the dew drops shine,
For just a single moment .. he was mine ...

And there I was again, wishing and hoping that I'd meet him at some crossroad again ...
When he'd turn around and care 'bout my existence ....

Met a stranger today and dreamt of sharing my world with him
All the deepest, darkest secrets that were filled to the brim ....

All those songs that brought a tear to my eye ..
And those aspirations that the world would defy ...

All the words that I want to share ........
All those actions in my life I'd never dare

But where are you coz you aren't here ..
Day, Night, month and year
I save every dream to share ......... WITH YOU !

By your side

Sometimes I'd wish you'd be sitting here right by

my side and I'd talk like there's no tomorrow.
But when you are .... I'm tongue-tied ....


Sometimes I feel I'd share every dream and every thought while you are here ...
But when you are ... we only talk about you ...


Then I wonder where I figure in that busy world of yours .....


Would you care to know why I cried last night
or
why for a long time now I've been so quiet.


Would it ever bother you if I'd go away
or
How you'd react when you found out that I didn't wake up
to see the light of day ....


Would it matter if I'd leave without saying Goodbye
or
How I'd react when you'd say that everything between us
was just a lie.


Would it mean anything if I said I'll always be there
for you ....



Would you be there for me
or
Would you let me be lost in the blue


Answers I look for, maybe I'll never find,
But I know that somewhere in the back of my mind ....


That even if you aren't around
I'd hear your laughter when I'd say something that always amused you ...
I'd hear the excitement when I'd play your favorite song ...
I'd feel you smile proudly when I'd achieve something ....


So at the end of the day I'll take the chance ....
I'll stay by YOUR side, right until time ends ...
and you give me another glance ....