Unsaid

I thought I'd write to you today ... about how I felt ...
when you looked at me from the corner of your eye
and how I catch that look and smile ...
and how I had started to live that lie ....

I thought I'd write to you today ... about how I felt ..
when I walked down those lanes of life ..
and how you'd take my every advice ...
and that I felt, I added meaning to my presence, in your life ..


I thought I'd write to you ... 'bout what I meant ...
when I'd say I'll be there until time turns around ..
and how life would be so different .. so beautiful ...
if you would feel that same feeling that I felt ....

I thought I'd write to you today ... of why those unspoken words are being said today ....
Its 'coz I see you going away ...

I wanna hold on ... and let you read all those words I've written ...
But time has taken its course and what was today is now yesterday ...

And in a blink while you're gaze has shifted ...
Your world has changed ..

Those words you should have read...
are being torn into shreds ...

Those words maybe ... are better best UNSAID ...

Crimson

Unspoken words,

unheard stories ,

just silent secrets.

Untrodden paths,

unsung songs,

just silent silhouettes.

Untouched worlds,

unabridged lives,

just silent hope.

Unadulterated fantasies,

unforgetable moments,

JUST Crimson Dreams Glistening ....... in my eyes.

Musings

I sat by the window sill and as the lazy rains poured down. With a cup of freshly brewed coffee and your favourite music playing in the background, I made one more attempt to let the rains wash away all those memories...

But these lil drops of happiness were bringing a smile as I thought of a similar day when we took a walk down the beachside, your presence making me feel warm in the chilly breeze after that light shower ....

I recalled all we spoke about during that hour, every word etched in my head like it were carved on stone. How you confessed that your secret admirer had made one more attempt to make herself known. Not giving you much more than a lil' clue, a CD. With all your favourite songs on it. Each one handpicked, like she knew you inside out. With that puzzled look you asked me, "Why won't she make herself known? After all what's to loose?"

So I told you that maybe she'd much rather admire you from a distance than make herself known. And set herself miles apart from you. And he asked "why would I do that to her? From what I see she seems so caring and sweet. I don't think I would have a reason ... "

And I thought, she knows the reason too. You don't Love her. And she knows she will never be able to change that.She's tried. When you were feeling down, she would make every attempt to cheer you up. Not seizing one opportunity. When you had a reason to celebrate she would make sure nothing would ruin that happy moment. And when she thought you just wanted to know that your presence made a difference she'd give you a warm hug to make your day ....

And now after all those failed attempts she knows that it all makes sense coz Love was never meant to be selfish and whoever said Love if not two sided is unsuccessful was only looking at it with a myopic perspective. Coz Love is selfless and pure ... It's not a debt that's meant to be returned ...

And as you and I sat down to gaze at the sunset you sid to me with that lil twinkle in your eyes "I am a lil worried. I like these sweet jestures of my secret admirer, but I dont know if she is spoiling me .. by giving me so much attention. Then again I guess I will never miss it. Coz the lady who will put a ring on this finger tomorrow will do the same. Give me the love I never had. " "And then I've got you babe .. my best friend"

I took another sip of the coffee and while I continued to watch the rain pour down. The song played on " Wherever you go whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you ."

Le Chale (OST My Brother Nikhil)

Chandni Muskuraye Jab Hawa Kuch Kahe
Samjho Meri Sadaye Hai Tere Saath Main
Jo Ghana Ho Fiza Main Andhera
Layenge Hum Savere Tere Liye
Le Chale Le Chale Yaadon Ke Yeh Kaafile
Jayenge Hum Jahan
Yeh Zameen Asmaan Mile

Narm Boondon Ki Rimjhim
Pehli Baarish Ke Din
Dopahar Garmiyon Ki
Shame Woh Sard Si
Rut Koi Koi Mausam Koi Ghadi
Ho Saath Main Humko Har Dam Tum Paaoge

Ahaatein Dheemi Dheemi Tere Awaaz Ki
Choti Choti Si Baaten Woh Shararat Bhari
Un Palo Un Lamho Ki Jaadoogari
Aaj Bhi Hai Sanjoye
Dil Ne Mere

Le Chale Le Chale Yaadon Ke Yeh Kaafile
Jayenge Hum Jahan
Yeh Zameen Asmaan Mile
Le Chale Le Chale

Quotes that add sense to life ...

This one is a beautiful line from a Sufi Song ... These two lines mean so much

घर से मसजिदहै बहुत दूर ...

चलो यूं ना करें

किसी रोते हुए बच्चे को हसाया जाए

" Ghar Se Masjid hai bahut door ... chalo yun na karein ..

Kissi roote hue bachche ko Hasaya jaye ...

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My wish for You

When you wished someone would take care of you,

And saw no one around

I was not too far away ... but right there,

Making a lil prayer for you

And when you yearned for a loved one to pick up the phone and call you

And say that they were wanting you to come home .. while you were late at work

I wished you'd have a safe journey as you walked down that lonely lane back home ....

Like a guardian angel I wished to always be by your side,

Invisible, quiet, serene,

And protecting you from every bad tide.

But I always found myself at distance from you,

Loving you when you felt you were lonely....

Yearning to be there when you felt lost ......

WITH YOU

Met a stranger today as I took one step closer to paradise
I wanted to hold that hand and cross all the hurdles of life .....

I wished his presence would be mine until eternity ..
But when I turned around I saw him go by ...

Like a dream it all seemed ...
Distant and far away ...

Like the early morning sunlight that made the dew drops shine,
For just a single moment .. he was mine ...

And there I was again, wishing and hoping that I'd meet him at some crossroad again ...
When he'd turn around and care 'bout my existence ....

Met a stranger today and dreamt of sharing my world with him
All the deepest, darkest secrets that were filled to the brim ....

All those songs that brought a tear to my eye ..
And those aspirations that the world would defy ...

All the words that I want to share ........
All those actions in my life I'd never dare

But where are you coz you aren't here ..
Day, Night, month and year
I save every dream to share ......... WITH YOU !

By your side

Sometimes I'd wish you'd be sitting here right by

my side and I'd talk like there's no tomorrow.
But when you are .... I'm tongue-tied ....


Sometimes I feel I'd share every dream and every thought while you are here ...
But when you are ... we only talk about you ...


Then I wonder where I figure in that busy world of yours .....


Would you care to know why I cried last night
or
why for a long time now I've been so quiet.


Would it ever bother you if I'd go away
or
How you'd react when you found out that I didn't wake up
to see the light of day ....


Would it matter if I'd leave without saying Goodbye
or
How I'd react when you'd say that everything between us
was just a lie.


Would it mean anything if I said I'll always be there
for you ....



Would you be there for me
or
Would you let me be lost in the blue


Answers I look for, maybe I'll never find,
But I know that somewhere in the back of my mind ....


That even if you aren't around
I'd hear your laughter when I'd say something that always amused you ...
I'd hear the excitement when I'd play your favorite song ...
I'd feel you smile proudly when I'd achieve something ....


So at the end of the day I'll take the chance ....
I'll stay by YOUR side, right until time ends ...
and you give me another glance ....

From a Distance

From a Distance

from a distance .......I watch you and only wonder why life throws such beautiful surprises at me when i least expect it ........

from a distance.......I look at where we are and wonder why wars between us feel like great conversations ......

from a distance ........I look at everything and realise this is the only time that it will be this way ..... tommorrow will be another day ... and life wont be the same ..... I maynot be here or you might not be around me ..... but life will still go on .... time will go on ...... never stop and thats when I make a lil wish for time to standstill ....... to freeze so I have time to cherish the moment .....