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26 July, 2010

I'll Never be Her

You don't see her in me,
That's what you said yesterday,
On that late rainy evening,
As we sat at that little coffee shop by the bay.

In your thoughts she exists, she lives.
She has the smile that lights up your atmosphere.
Her words like a serenade, so engaging that you want to give her a listening ear.

And when you dance, you feel her arms around you,

You want that for eternity that ballad to continue.

You tell me she is an illusion, stolen from your reality.
She is your creati
on, an epitome of your creativity.

She's someone you are yet to meet.
You say you've never seen her,
It's like you hav
e the glass slipper,
But it's taking time to find its rightful owner.

And I think to myself, I could be all that and so much more,
I bleed.
I'm knocking so hard o
n that closed door.

It's been some time now.
I think i should let go.
Thought I'd take my chances,
But there was something I didn't know.

So yesterday when those words you had said.
Your words have compelled me to make that bitter-sweet surrender.
I'll continue to be myself.
To you somehow, I'll never be her ...


Posted by Diana D'Souza at 12:10 PM 2 comments

10 July, 2010

The Surreal Silence


I wonder if I'm annoyed with you or mad at myself. Your silence and your absence has transgressed into my confusion and dilemma. And now I'm questioning the thoughts in my head and quizing the feelings in your heart.


Sometimes I vent out my angst. At other times, I shut the world out.
In my heart, a little desire cries out loud, to deafen me. She screams, she yells. And when she has lost all strength, she moves to the corner of my heart and weeps silently. She quietly curses the hope that was once awakened, when you had first walked in.


She tries hard to convince herself that all that happened was just an illusion. Surreal.. too good to be true. And hope feels bad for her, so it flickers in her heart. For a moment, she feels the nostalgia. Then, its gone.


Fighting so many emotions isn't all that easy. All I want is for you to break that silence. Maybe the assurance of your words would bring that peace. Maybe you convincing me that those were just hallucinations would help.
Then again, I question myself. Do I really want hope to be murdered by the brutallity of his words?
Posted by Diana D'Souza at 4:03 PM 10 comments
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